Author Archives: Ao Fujita

My feelings

I was feeling like we were getting back together but he doesn’t want to be in a relationship with me…..

Why you’re being so nice to me like my boyfriend then…

Why you asked me to kiss you then

You said it is not fair but I have no idea what that mean is..

I was really happy when I was with you at your house.

Watching movies, eat dinner sleep together

And the next day, you drive me to my work.

I can make myself happy by myself actually but if we have time and eat some dinner or something, I would be even more happy.

He doesn’t understand that..

How do I explain to him..

Sad

Please don’t hurt me anymore

Why you got me back then….

If you say so..

Am I nothing for you?

What if I die?

Would you be sad? Or you wouldn’t feel anything?

Maybe you wouldn’t even be sad

I’m nothing

I like you so much

I love you from my bottom of my heart

But you are not into me..

I’m nothing…

I want to cry

I want you to come to me and sleep with me

Or I wish I could die

What is this???

What do you think of me???

I always want to ask you this question because I have no idea

I hope you to take me somewhere

After this Lockdown

A few days ago he was disappointed with me because I couldn’t do the dishes in the day before.

And I said Sorry I was tired.

He said it’s ok you’re busy

But he didn’t look ok he was definitely angry with me

And I started to do the dishes

And I thought I should’ve done the dishes

I felt like I would start cry

10 minutes later, he came to me and he said Sorry I didn’t mean to upset you. You don’t have to clean.

??? I thought you were angry with me.

And I said No no it’s ok. My bad.

But he said sorry to me. Which means he felt bad about what he said.

So… I just need to be careful and don’t forget to clean up.

That’s it.